Ever since I started Mindfully Investing, I’ve managed to post roughly twice a month without a break. My perfect attendance record included months when I suffered and then recovered from a heart attack, some long vacations, and several other time-consuming life events. Through all of this, I somehow found the time and energy to research, develop graphics for, write, edit and publish a post that, on average, was somewhere in the 2000-word range.
But I now find that I need to take a break from the relentless posting cycle. Given my last post, you might reasonably think that the hiatus is because I’m going through a divorce, and I don’t have the emotional bandwidth for blogging. But that’s not exactly right. In fact, I’ve been separated for nearly a year. And even in the early days of the separation, when my emotions were running their hottest, I managed to put together some decent posts. But now I’m officially divorced, and emotionally speaking, things have calmed down considerably.
A more accurate description of my current situation is summed up by an inside joke from my relentlessly busy old job: “I’m paralyzed with workload.” The joke refers to that uncomfortable condition where you find yourself with too many high-priority deadlines. If you work on A, then B and C will be late. If you work on B, then A and C will be of poor quality, etc. Paralysis sets in as you try to come up with some magic way to tackle all the tasks, while in the meantime, the deadlines creep ever closer. The joke is funny to observers but not to those suffering the paralysis—like a friend slipping on a banana peel.
My divorce process is mostly over, but now I find myself tending an endless to-do list with categories like cleaning out the house I’ve lived in for 15 years, getting it ready to sell, selling the darn thing, buying a new house, moving to the new house, family commitments this spring and summer, and the usual everyday stuff that never stops.
If you work full time, such complaints from a fully retired person may seem ridiculous to you. And to some extent, your right. I somehow previously managed to move eight times while holding down a full-time job. If I really wanted to, I could work on posts late into the night after I’m physically worn out from yard work and packing up rooms. But that option would feel a lot like my old professional life and reminds me of the main reason that I decided to retire early. I hated being paralyzed by workload.
So, I always told myself that if blogging ever felt like work instead of an enjoyable hobby, I’d have to stop or at least take a break. That’s exactly where I am right now. Now as I work on my endless to-do list, I find that the thought of my next blog post is becoming just another chore on the list. Instead of looking forward to the mental change of scenery offered by writing, I’m instead worrying about where to find the time for blogging. Ideas for new posts that normally just pop into my head have dried up, or when they do arise, they seem too trivial for a quality post.
So, when will I start posting regularly again? I wish I could say for sure, but putting a deadline on it feels too much like the deadlines from my previous work life. Instead, I’ll just say that, when things calm down and the idea of blogging feels appealing again, I will get back to writing. I don’t think it’s a matter of if, but when.
Apologies to anyone who recently subscribed to my post notifications. It must feel like the rug was pulled out from under you. On the other hand, if you are new to Mindfully Investing, there are more than a hundred past posts and articles that have extremely relevant content for anyone who’s trying to navigate the world of individual investing. Just because one of my posts was published in the past doesn’t make it outdated information, although you’ll find occasional exceptions. So, I urge new readers to keep clicking that “older posts” link to find some still topical content.
Until next time.